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post birthday alert!

2006-05-08T08:42:00.000-07:00

well, i am officially 15 years old and there is a friggin gross lizard in the ceiling. blech. my birthday is on may 6 but i just celebrated it yesterday because apparently everyone is "busy" on my birthday. and i was even sick to begin with. how sad.

me and my mom went to school a while ago to enroll micol and i. not much people and i cant believe im a junior already. gad. im so nervous i wouldnt be able to breath on the first day of classes. haha.

my cousin has been staying with us for the past two weeks because his going to america. good for him. then the smart him lost his passport last night and today was his friggin interview! haha. but eventually he found it. close one. anyway im too lazy to type more. hahaha... tell you more soon.

summer has finally come.

2006-03-24T00:10:00.000-08:00

i absolutely love summer. hahaha. now it really is summer and i can do whatever i want like swim all day long. im in this swank internet cafe now in greenbelt with mara. we went swimming a while ago just to do some laps. i forgot how much i did. but i had the best swim last wednesday in jasmin's place. ultimate bonding with ny friends... haha. i really love my section! they're so super fun to be with. all the food. all the pictures. all the boys. all the water. well, that was fun! taking a bath in strawberry ice cream in jasmin's backyard was really fun. and sunbathing the whole afternoon, though i didn't get dark. i got dark a while ago though. haha. later we're having dinner here ater in greenbelt with some relatives from someplace. haha. im so bored but im so happy that it's summer time already. swimming everyday!

confused....

2006-03-21T15:42:00.000-08:00

but it's not so bad, you're only the best i ever had...

i swear this is what i feel until now. towards ..... i loved him, respected him, understood him, i tried my best to do all of those even if he had such a bratty attitude. i don't even know why i liked him. he's not even cute. nothing. he didn't have anything that made my jaw drop. nothing. but there was just this something there. between us. that when we talked my day was complete. and i loved him for that.

now, i am still confused to the ultimate confusion because there's this one guy that i talk to who's cute, talented, and everything i absolutely want in a guy. i hate the fact that im a girl and that i have to wait for the guy to do anything. haaaaay.... but he's not doing anything so there's obviously nothing there. he like's another girl. so i can't do anything but just stare at him far, far away...

anyway...

never mind.

sad

2006-03-07T05:25:00.000-08:00

i havent posted in such a long time coz ive been very busy to the max! so much requirements, so little time...! we're going to puerto this weekend! hahah maybe but sana yes.... anyway... florante at laura is officially done! we did it last week friday... it went bad. at least it think it did! sana it didnt. hahaha...

anyway. im not outstanding anymore. how disappointing. ho-hum... got a b in math. MATH! hayayayay.... i want to die. i think i shall kill myself.

what a wonderful feeling. what a wonderful day.

2006-02-17T03:17:00.000-08:00

what a wonderful feeling. what a wonderful day.

that's exactly what i feel right now. i am so happy. i won! as business manager although i promise i didnt expect it. and i didnt want to run in the first place i was just convinced to by mrs. pena. i dont know if i should hate her or thank her. i swear. then keidi shook my hand! that really made my day...

even if some of the people that i voted didnt win im so glad. micol lost. i feel sad for her.

lunch tomorrow with my cousins! haha....
bye!

happy valentines day...

2006-02-14T20:34:00.000-08:00

happy valentines day... well today was like any other normal day for me coz of course i dont expect anything to happen in my dumb life. haha. im not shocked coz you get used to it. you know? haha i do! the last time i ever received anything was grade 6. or was it grade 5? one of those. haha. anyway so many revelations were revealed today. huh? i found so much hidden desires...! haha

room to room campaign tomorrow, i dont expect to win. lets bet that not a single junior would vote for me. im sure i'd win! haha... anyway im sort of bored and i just wanna mope around... so... byebye!

happy valentines day!

nervousness

2006-02-11T19:52:00.000-08:00

lets bet i wouldnt be able to sleep this coming week. im running for business manager and im going to lose. i dont even know why i ran in he first place. utter stupidness. well anyway i got so much things to do which is due on tuesday. valentines day. haha but i finished most of it yesterday. anyway. i dont know what to say anymore. oh yah no classes tomorrow! paranaque day. good coz no p.e.! i hate p.e. at the moment because of ms. gregs. she's mad at our group for no valid reason. well maybe there is a reason but she cant stay forever mad you know! haha... anyway... ive been so bored since last night. i dont know what we're doing today. go to the mall maybe and watch a movie or something. hehe. im going to watch a concert tomorrow! in araneta... haha... just sharing. since i guess thats what people usually do with their blogs, share. haha im so weird! anyway. bye...

haaay... stressed out!

2006-02-07T20:12:00.000-08:00

though valentine's day is just around the corner. why do i feel so loveless? maybe because of 2. i swear i hate him. the worse guy in the whole world. he does not deserve anybody. nobody. hmmm... i absolutely despise him. and i guess im also sad because i found out somebody is asking someone to the prom.. though i actually have no close relationship with him i still feel affected. maybe because i liked him too much. too much than what i expected to happen between the both of us. i guess i counted my chickens. i swear mara is sooo right! i love having an older sister. so much advices that actually do help. i will not count my chickens anymore because i keep on having my hopes up then i get disappointed when what i expected didn't meet my expectations... (huh?!? never mind...)

i failed math. i swear i am such a sucker in math. i got 79. C. im so so so so useless in math. i hate diane. if it wasn't for her i would have at least gotten bonus points. but nooo. she decided to hog the grades by getting a 100 so nobody but her can get the bonus points. does she really have to be so smart? haaaay... how sad.

but i passed a.p. though... :) i actually got an A-. i want to pass a.p. because last year i almost failed a.p... but im doing much better now. i promise. except in math though... i hate math! but i love a.p. at the moment because i got an A in the unit test, A- in the bi-weekly test and an A- in the mastery test... quite good, right?

we had our ramayana presentation today and i was sooo nervous! panicked actually... it was super impromptu every single one of it. but it was ok. haha. our costumes sucked.(well, at least for the dancers. hmmm... we have to do much better in the florante at laura. i will try to do my part humbly and correctly.. haha. i need a stupid contract! anyway... i thought i lost my sock! how dumb... i didn't want to walk around all day in school in my havaianas... the whole classroom might smell... just kidding...! hehe. then i THOUGHT i lost my skirt too... then i went backstage again then i found my skirt just lying around there. (whoooo...)

me, tin. ella, januel and duh, micol went to kfc and drowned ourselves in so much fries. haha patay gutom! may picture pa! then thats all... went to tin's house after and just stood and looked around... then we left!

im starting the stupid requirement in a.p. already because if i don't start now i won't ever end....

love yah...!

haaay... what a day...

2006-02-02T00:34:00.000-08:00

a.p. is the weirdest test that i have ever took all my life. i swear i studied so super duper hard but really, everything in the test were invisible in the book.! i don't remember reading any of it! how weird... anyway stat was a killer because i almost died i swear i am sooo confused! during quizzes i get really high grades but when the mastery test comes my mind just fails me all of a sudden! i swear i don't understand the mean median and mode shit. just confuses me even more. i think i even like numbers better than knoing what the meanings of all those words are.... i am sooooo happy... because *i** sed hi to me.... and that really made my day.... well he always makes my day everyday anyway..... hahaha love yah!

i hate this day... (sort of)

2006-02-01T01:59:00.000-08:00

i hate hate hate this day. because ms. marpa ruined it. i was so happy yesterday and it just got ruined because of her. i hate her! im failing cle and i tried my best to study hard which i did but she didnt let me finish the dang test. i hate it hate it hate it. goodness. she's gonna get it from me. it's payback time dude. tsktsk. i am pissed. annyway. filipino was okay. hard but some parts were easy. at least i think they were. haha. math was steady but confusing. hahah... stupid numbers being all jumbled in my mind. i swear i had no idea what i was doing a while ago. well, i studied for a.p. already. for like 2 0r 3 hours. hardness. i can't memorize the names of all those people involved. hahaha... especially the chinese and indian names. i have absolutely no plan of naming my childre "auringzeb"... whadda?!? anyway... i dont know what to do... study more... or fix my room? hahaha.. nothing to do... just pissed.

panic..!

2006-01-31T20:40:00.000-08:00

omg... test officially starts tomorrow and i am soooo scared. especially for filipino, i can't effin understand those really deep tagalog words. it's as if im learning a new language all over again. retarded. but i tried my very best and studied all the words i could actually understand. haha. laughtrip. anyway. c.l.e. is just steady. i studied hard for the bi-weekly test last time that everything is still stuck in my brain. hehe. my memory worked really well last week. hmmmm. math?!? let's not even get started, math is crazy. i get so stupid when it comes to math. i study but everything just suddenly goes *poof*.

i am soo soo soo happy. hohum... i cant even describe it. just happiness. plain happiness....

all i can say now is:

LIFE IS GOOD. :)

steady...

2006-01-30T04:19:00.000-08:00

m.t. is in two days and im about to die. haha. im trying my very best not to cram so i've been studying since friday night. unbelievable. haha. and i am happy because **** said "hi" to me. since im the most shallow person on the world that completed my day. i thought i was about to go crazy but fortunately he noticed me. haha.

anyway today in english we had this paragraph writing where we had to write "the things i value the most"... that made me think. well of course that included family, God, education, friends, the likes and keidi. i can't even believe i wrote that. very unexpected. hehe.

i sang also today except my stupid microphone didn't work so xanxan's voice really covered mine. but no biggie. i know she's a way better singer than me. i had to wear a filipiñana though. *eeew* *itchy*. haha.

i also played volleyball during p.e. time. i finally know how to serve. and good too. hehe. then it was the most laughtrip game we ever had because after long last our group won. before our p.e. was lunch and i had the worst stomachache ever. me and betina actually (haha betina may sunburn).

anyway. i am really pissed off with mrs. peña, she's the most "out-of-this-world- teacher" i ever had. hmmm. hate her.

oh yeah. i watched the notebook this saturday afternoon and i almost died of crying. typical me.

~~*my love for you keeps on getting stronger everyday*~~

... to actually notice me...

skandar keynes...!

2006-01-29T07:34:00.000-08:00

my boyfriend.

college?

2006-01-29T07:23:00.000-08:00

shet. i cant believe that in 2 years i would be leaving the safe halls of my high school then venture off into college. sure i sound excited but i really want to get a headstart as early as now. hmmm. i've been thinking a lot of what i'm going to take up. well, im very much decided on culinary arts. or maybe business first. but i just want to be a chef. an executive chef. haha. sure i sound like a lunatic but at least i have dreams which i plan on fulfilling. haha. me and ella have been talking a lot about it too. we plan on studying college abroad together. *fingers crossed...*

anyway. i dont know. my moms really supporting me with my plans but im not so sure yet bout my dad. he's almost going to give in. i know it. i will NEVER be a dentist. no matter what he says. NEVER. im just not born to be one. once i take up dentistry it's the biggest mistake of my life...

i dont want to be 3rd year yet! noooo. goodbye freedom.! farewell..! hmmm in 5 months i will be a junior and in 17 months a senior! then in 29 months a college student! it sounds sooo weird... i can't imagine myself as a college student. never! haha... though eventually i'd have to be one, right?

so much to say so little time....

2006-01-22T04:34:00.000-08:00

gawd.! i am so happy...
hahah..
i finally got to watch jason mraz and he is such a great perfomer! haaay.... hotness..!
so inlike right now...!

*...when i fall in love, i'll take my time. there's no need to hurry when i'm making up my mind. you can turn off the sun but im still gonna shine and did i tell you why?...*

so freakin' happy...

2006-01-12T02:34:00.000-08:00

haaaay... i am so happy... and i cant get any happier...! haaaay.... happy happy happy .... im STILL in heaven... i think i just reached nirvana....

this is sooooo freakin' true...! teehee...

haaaay... stupid finger

2006-01-10T05:15:00.000-08:00

arggghhh! my stupid right ring finger broke during our practical test in volleyball this monday. i hate it! i can't do anything properly and it hurts. but not so much anymore. haha...

i have sims2 nightlife! how fun!

head over heels?!?

2006-01-05T02:53:00.000-08:00

shhheeet...! i am totally head over heels with keidi. omigod.! i might not even like *toooot* anymore just because of stupid keidi. why do they have to do this to me? i am sooooooo head over heels at this very moment. and i have di's cell number in my phone but i would NOT txt him because i am first of all NOT a stalker. LOL. lucky ella.! hate you biatch.! why do you have to be sooooo freakin lucky? ayayay...

anyway. hmmm? cant wait til' saturday!! hehe..

i am actually not supposed to be doing this. im supposed to do our stupid book report in english. but my backs already aching so i decided to take a break by surfing the net and watching princess diaries 2..! hehe..

i would have to go back to my crazy book report in a while... so....

<3

ella...! this for you from me...! mwah....

looong looong time

2006-01-04T03:12:00.000-08:00

well i am so sorry but i haven't posted in such a loong time. obviously i was lazy. as always. haha. anyway, i have so much things to say.

i went back again to thailand and i spent christmas there. our hotel now is like a gazillion times better than our hotel thte last time we went there. it was the most amazing hotel i ever went to internationally. then anyway there are so much hot guys in thailand (although most of them were foreigners, but so what?).

then. i dont know. well i do hope i became darker. haha. i have no idea but i really want to get darker. maybe i got jealous because my cousins had a tan. but not really. it just looks cool to be dark.

i ate in carlos' pizza today. i saw the *toooot* and *toooot* haha. and they were SOOO hot. as usual. but i swear they really don't know how to dress up. but so what. their faces make up for it. hahaha...

i am so weird.

leaving tomorrow!

2005-12-22T23:30:00.000-08:00

tomorrow i am leaving for thailand. my family and i will stay there from december 23 til' 27. which obviously means we are going to spend our christmas there. hehe. i will really try my very best to update my blog while i am there. i hope i could.

the only thing i'll be doing in thailand anyway is go boy-hunting and shopping. thats it. haha. lots of cute foreigner boys there and lots of cool clothes there! weeeee.... anyway it's getting kinda late (11:35 p.m.) and i have to get my beauty sleep before leaving for thailand. we'll be staying in amari hotel, bangkok, by the way. anyway.... see ya! and happy christmas to everybody.!

yeah booooy...

2005-12-19T22:24:00.000-08:00

ahaha... 3 hours and 30 minutes til our gig! yeeeeaaaahhh.... im sooo excited! i just came from makati now... i slept there since sunday night until last night... im going to batangas tonight after our gig. ahaha... i went swimming a while ago. also yesterday actually. but it was so cold so it really spoiled the swimming mode. oh well.

anyway. i watched king kong. sunday night. it was really long and it was late na. haha. barbie almalbis was there watching too. i think she had a date. they were noisy and they kept on standing up. but they left eventually. haha. then we watched the family stone the next day. ultimate cryfest! i swear. can't stop crying the whole movie. haaaay. how sad. anyway. i dont know the gig is coming sooooo close already and i cant wait.! haha... hope we do really good.! pray for us... hahaha...

gtg... pick up mah bandmates...!

see ya...!

loooong time...

2005-12-17T06:39:00.000-08:00

omigosh i haven't posted in such a long time because i was either busy or lazy. more of lazy. ooops. haha. nehoo, i was checking out this really cute guy in mass. i heard mass at manresa because micol had to sing in the choir. AGAIN. i am about to get sick listening to it. not really. maybe. i don't know! back to the guy. he looked sort of emo-ish... i like that in a guy. it really turns me on. i think he saw me checking him out. but so what he was checking me out too (i hope). i really hoped *2* would be there since he lives near school. but he wasn't. oh well. tough luck. hahaha.

well, christmas break has officially begun and i am already bored. i have absolutely nothing to do! damn... but i went to the mall yesterday with my 'kada and for the first time we were complete. all five of us. we took pictures but all of it sucked except one which was sort of cute. then we saw lots of manresans but surprisingly only a few from our batch. ace, as usual. then april s. and h., tkaye, pat g., shaunne, marielle, kris, mervyn, julio, din, imang, and i forgot the others but they were a lot. hahaha. we were all hanging out by the stairs near the cinemas and we totally blocked the whole way. haha. so what. we ruled the staircase! haha.

my bandmates gave me really cool board shorts. it's too big for me but what the heck. then tina gave me pajamas. weird. i received really cool gifts this year compared to what people used to gave me back in first year and grade six. hmmm....

well i have nothing to say. oh yah i watched the fog yesterday. haha. it was just really nakakagulat but it wasn't at all scary. i mean it didn't really make me scared when i got home. haha. anyway. nothing to do again but chat chat chat. micols going to westin tomorrow. im going too because she's going to sing AGAIN. haha. well, hopefully it's already the last time tomorrow. i hope i see that cute guy again. haha. what school is he from?

haha...

*peace awt*

trip...!

2005-12-07T01:56:00.000-08:00

i am so mean.... aahahaha....

hmmm.... so relieved..!

2005-12-06T03:14:00.000-08:00

i feel so happy right now because i still have straight a's despite my noisiness and everything...
hooohummmm.... i really thought i'd fail because most of my teachers have gotten mad at me already... i am so surprised i super promise..!

then anyway i dont have to take the test tomorrow... because of choir practice..! there are so much advantagese of being in the choir..! ahaha... well im so happy i dont have to take the test now... though i will take it next week at least its already the last week of school... then after that... Christmas break! 2 and a half weeks of rest and relaxation... haha.

anyway.... dont know anymore what to say just came home now and i am so tired i promise...! i need rest...!

i feel really bad today...

2005-12-05T02:13:00.000-08:00

i feel so bad today because of so many reasons... so much... first i feel reaally sick! im so happy we had choir practice because during the practice i wasnt queasy anymore.... i felt kind of okay.... then math! that really made me mad... because of my crazy teacher... i swear i am not he noisy one but its always me... me me me... damnit! im not noisy.... stupid chair of januel.... making me pahamak with everything he used to do... before he was always the one that was making our teacher really mean but i was the one noisy... while now! hes the noisy one but im always the one that my teacher gets mad at...!
mierda..! im so pikon already... i promise...!

anyway... we didnt really do anything today because i dont know.... it was a boring but very badtrip day!

ciao!

i really really super hate 2...

2005-12-02T22:01:00.000-08:00

i swear i really hate him so much... i know there were days he made me happy but there were more days he made me sad... not cry because i wouldnt cry for a guy because thats just a sign that im weak... i am not weak and i am not that desperate... i feel really bad especially last night... i am so happy that im in the choir because at lest it makes me think of more important things like singing.... singing really relieves me i promise when i sing i dont think of anyone. especially him. him. him. him. he could die and i wouldnt care because its his freakin loss not mine! hmmm...

anyway... i felt so stressed yesterday because of the million skits we had to and present and practice. i feel so tired! and my mom doesnt want to allow me to go to the mall. i have no idea why. im just so bored here at home and ive got nothing to do! its so boring! hohum....

ho-hum...

2005-12-01T02:32:00.000-08:00

well this day was fun because we had no c.l.e....! wahaha.... i am so mean i promise...! wehehe...
well to make it better ill say all the things that happened in every subject we had today one by one... ahaha...

first we had english! we had this readers theater which went completely wrong by the way...! because the stupid boys didnt want to wear the stupid mask...! ahaha... weirdos! but our grade is 87, which is kinda good actually considering the fact that we didnt even practice.... not once!!! how stupid noh?!?

then we had... filipino! ahaha... we had a group work (as usual!) then we will have a play on monday about the asian family... i DO NOT want to put details here because they are too confidential... i shall tell only on the day that it truly will happen! hihihih.... susspense...!

hmmm?!? h.r.c?!? yeah... we had to watch a movie about peer pressure... well im not exactly the type of person that gives in really quickly... which is really helpful in my life by the way highway...!

woohoo...! math... i know that im really dumb in math but at least i understand it... at least i do! it really confuses me a lot but i am really desperate to get a high grade in math and statistics... i am THAT desperate...!

t.h.e. for 2 whole hours...! and no teacher..! how fun...! hehehe... then guess what im actually the director of our yearly play.... this year entitled "Florante at Laura..." hahaha...! im really so happy because i have so much cool ideas... but i really hope that everyone would cooperate with me... im really nervous for that cooperation part...!

guess what?!? the boys know how to cook and they're really good too! galeng..! it really tasted good... i mean for a guy that is such a big shocker...!

then c.c.a time we didnt really do anything... we just kept on reminiscing on our elementary days and we just talked talked and talked bout girly stuffs...!

then last was choir practice...! after class... it was really tiring and everyone there was so good... i felt so dumb and paos... with all of them there... how crazy...! ehehe... we sang spanish songs... i understood only very little words there.... hihihi...

then i finally i went home..! here..! this day was really awesome...! ahaha...!

i SO curse this day...!

2005-11-30T01:42:00.000-08:00

omigod! i really really hate this day...! really... so much... super...! dammit...! i hate it....

actually the day started out quite fine.... no worries at all because that crazy symposium didnt push true.... i was totally unprepared for that! then after we had statistics...! i was so crazy during our stat because i really had this strong sugar rush.... i was so hyper dude! as in bangag talaga....! really.... then we had filipino... it was alright... though i got bored (so typical of me...) again... ahaha....

then we had lunch... actually lunch turned out well i just ate fries (cost-cutting..!)... then next we had c.l.e..... omigod.. the nightmare officially started in this subject...! well... i sit beside januel who is like the most noisiest person in the planet... obviously we're not meant to me beside each other because then that would like an explosion...! really noisy... then anyway... our teacher noticed...

guess who's beside me.... nick! damnit.. i hate this...! he is like the most weirdo ugly guy in the classroom... maybe even our batch im not sure....! i know i sound mean and everything but i swear it really bothered me a lot! now everyone's teasing me and the ground could really swallow me up and i wouldnt give a shit...! i hate it.... why now? then from this day on he is my official seatmate during c.l.e!! i hate it so much really...! aaaaahhhh.... help me...!

our next subject was computer... it was really stressing because of that stupid macromedia flash it really made my mind work! gad...! last subject was english.... it went okay coz we just had to practice for our reader's theater tomorrow... ahaha...!

anyway.. that's all i could say... i really hate this day...! (it rhymes..)

adios..!

hangover

2005-11-29T01:35:00.000-08:00

dammit..! i still got hangover-ed by the crazy family day...! stupid... dapat we didnt have classes na also today... i was too lazy yet e.... mwahaha....

no assignments but i have a symposium tomorrow! so stupid... i have to wear semi formal clothes even i f i dont really own any semiformal clothes... i dont even know what we are going to discuss about... how weird...

anyway... im sort of happy today but i dont really want to write it here coz its like a really major uber super secret! i so cant say it here... but i do hpoe it continues til tomorrow!!!

ciao!

dont know what to do....

2005-11-28T19:00:00.000-08:00

grabe.... i spent the whole day practically doing nothing...! as in nothing really.... i just either read books or went online... cos i really had nothing to do... but yesterday was really fun! super.... ahaha....

i spent like the whole day in the field.... di naman... half nung day ... pabalik-balik gym to field then field back to the gym... i was really hoping i'd win the bingo... but i didnt...( not a shocker. really.) i was already dreaming what i would do with all that i money i was supposed to win...

i got a henna tattoo and its a chinese character... it says bitch.. i have no idea why i had it placed i thought maybe i found it cute... ahaha... and its until now in my hand too bad i wasnt able to take a picture of it... then... i dont know what else to write about....

the giant slide was really fun! super... going up the slide felt like eternity and i cant believe how much i laughed my insides out! by the time i got down of the slide i lost my breath already and i had to lie down because i had to let all of my contained laughter OUT! ahaha... but it was a really big bonding moment for me and my close friends... hehe...

then... i sat in the field the whole afternoon with chrissy, mica, tina, rafi and philip.... really cool friends talaga... hehehe... mukha siguro kaming bangag dun sa field.... it was cute anyway... basta! i think i find this family day better than last year... hehehe....

after long last....

2005-11-16T18:51:00.000-08:00

i havent written in SUCH a long time...! my gosh...! so much things have happened and i wasnt able to put it here because there was no FREAKIN dialtone..! how dumb....

anyway! we continued the softball games last week and guess what? we emerged CHAMPIONS! amazing really.... ahaha.... how fun!

and i really went to thailand and it was so cool because i didnt understand anything there and everybody looked like filipinos but when they start speaking i feel totally like an alien! i mean it... then we went shopping in this mall that was SO big man! i mean BIG! and it was all tiangges so it was like tawad galore... amazing... and in thailand we just walked around to get to places we didnt have to ride a car! ahaha... exercise! whatever... it was a really great experience and i think im going back there to celebrate Christmas... amd im SO excited for it! yippeee...!ahaha and the most mysterious thing happened in the airport and started from the hotel actually! its really cool because i met the "man of my dreams..." (dreaming on...) hehe....

last friday i went to de la salle zobel because i participated in the consortium and my sport was swimming... my gad! la salle's so big! i swear id get lost if i was a new student there.... and the students there were really friendly and all of them spoke in english.... i was really shocked and overwhelmed by that...! manresa is SO not like that...

anyway... ill just write again im sort of lazy now..! ooops...

intramurals finally over!!!(not)

2005-10-29T11:07:00.000-07:00

it is finally our semestral break and i am so tired because of the intrams and all those softball practices... softball games are going to be resumed when school starts again and i have decided to be a catcher for our team because i have discovered that i have the talent for it... ahahaha... i ahve nothing to do because i am so bored! i have spanish classes later and after that is the halloween ball of my batchmate... im not sure though going because its my dads birthday and i want to at least celebrate it with him... even if bandage is the special guest i still dont want to go because i need to wear a costume... which i dont want... hehe... im so tired! i went to a party last night... it was fun.. ahaha... thats all im saying now because i dont have enough time....

intramurals day #3

2005-10-26T18:24:00.000-07:00

omigosh! i am so tired already... i woke up today feeling so worried about the game for today against the juniors... i even woke up late! how crazy... i overslept but i was well rested (i think...) well anyway... i practiced maybe one hour and 30 mins. before the actual game... and the juniors didnt even practice... but they were so freakin' good... i didnt expect that our team would win but i didnt expect us to be such losers...! well we were... haha...! the reason we lost was because our batchmates didnt cheer for us... they were too busy cheering for the volleyball game that they forgot about us completely...! but at least we won that game...
then the whole afternoon was really hectic all the games we watched left me voiceless... which i am now... haha...!
the basketball game against the seniors really kept my mouth noisy... i was so hyper! fortunately we won! haha... i have no idea why... we were so nervous... the whole batch was! but we won... how amazing... hehe...
anyway... HE really rocked the basketball court... (shit! i cant be saying this...!) well he was really good... he did so many three point shots for his batch...! i am so proud of him...! ahaha....
well i have a softball game tomorrow morning against the seniors and i am so scared! i dont care if we lose again as long as we dont get hurt and as long as we play for fun! haha... im still nervous anyway...!

well 2 more days to go...! tell more about it tomorrow... (duh!)

intramurals day #2

2005-10-25T17:56:00.000-07:00

finally... today we had our first softball game against the freshmen... i was so nervous... i promise... in the first inning we didnt even get a chance to score... so it was like, 2-0... how scary...! but we really made it up in the 2nd inning... i contributed one point at least! ahaha... thanks to LG... i love you! because of her we gained 3 points... amazing.... i really thought i was going to get out because i ran around all the bases back and forth... i was so confused already... third inning we got even with the freshmen... they made bawi! but thanks to betina we won by one measly point that really meant super a lot to us.... i hate the umpire! by the way... he is the unfairest person ever...! anyway...

we also won the volleyball game against juniors... my voice really became hoarse after that... but next was basketball so it was even worse... haha... anyway... i have a really big secret now but i couldnt write it here, unfortunately... haha... im too scared that someone might actually see it... its too private... very confidential...

i spent the whole noontime staring balankly and playing hide and seek... i really had nothing to do... i was so bored... so i just played anyway... haha.... then after that were the volleyball and basketball games... hehehe....

then last game i watched was baseball.... we freakin lost against freshmen... how badtrip! their stupid short stopper... when it was his time to bat he "accidentally" jumped so that his foot could get hit then he could just walk... how crazy... i hate this already... well anyway... i scremed my lungs out there... but i got so tired that i just shut up after... haha...

thats all bout intrams... tomorrow again...!
it's 5:56 pm... nice time...

30 real feelings of a girl...

2005-10-24T19:50:00.000-07:00

1. when a girl is sad, but isnt crying, it means her heart is sad
2. when she ignores you after youve done something wrong, its better to give her some time to cool down before touching her heart with an apology
3. a girl cant find anything to hate about the guy she loves, which is why its so hard to "get over him" after theyve broken up
4. if a girl loves a guy, he will always be on her mind, every minute of every day, even if shes flirting with another guy
5. when the guy she likes smiles and looks deep into her eyes, she will melt
6. a girl likes to hear compliments but shes usually not sure how to react to them
7. when a particular guy starts to flirt with a girl very often, the girl will start to think the guy likes her, so you think of her as just a friend, go easy on the smiles and stares, okay?
8. if you dont like a girl who likes you, break it to her gently
9. if a girl starts avoiding you after you reject her, leave her alone for a while. if you still treat her like a friend, talk to her
10. girls enjoy talking about how they feel. music, poetry, drawing, and writing are their way of expressing themselves. which is why so many girls have journals
11. never tell a girl shes useless in any way
12. being too serious is a major turn off for girls
13. when the guy she likes calls her for the first time the girl may act uninterested durning the call but as soon as the phone is back on the hook she will whoop with joy and immediantly start telephoning her friends to share the good news.
14. a smile means a lot to a girl
15. if you like a girl, try making friends with her first. let her get to know you
16. if a girl says she cant go out with you because she has to study, leave.
17. (regarding 16...) but if she still wants you to call her, stay
18. dont try to guess a girls feelings...ask her
19. hearing the words "i love you" is a great reassurance to the girl that shes beautiful
20. after a girl falls in love with a guy, she will wonder why she never noticed him before
21. if you need tips on how to flirt with a girl, read romance stories.
22. when a class picture comes out, a girl would first check who is around their crush before looking at their picture
23. a girls ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she loves will always be in her heart
24. girls love having fun
25. a simple "hi" can brighten a girls day
26. a girls best friend usually knows how shes feeling and what shes going through
27. girls hate it when guys pay attention to them, just to get close to one of their friends
28. love means devotion, caring, and happiness to a girl... sometimes in that order
29. some girls care about looks, some about brains, but every girl wants a guy that will love and care for them
30. girls want nothing more than to be loved.

i can totally relate to this... duh im a girl... haha... crazy me...! especially number 2o.... so true...!

-guys these are tips so please take girls seriously coz we have feelings too u know!

intamurals day #1

2005-10-24T18:10:00.000-07:00

hahaha...! first day down four more to go...

i woke up SO early today and i slept SO late las night because my sister was very noisy and she kept on trying to keep me awake with her riddle thingies... then when i finally went to sleep i woke up again because time was so fast... i woke up really early... 4:37 a.m. to be exact... but i left home at about 6:30 a.m. because i had to fix my hair and put on make up and stuff... when i finally got to school the parade happened and everything happened really fast all i know is that i was so freakin nervous i wanted to pee on my costume... i swear...

then came the awarding... we won the best in costume award... as usual... hehe... no biggie... i mean i didnt really expect our batch to win the cheering competition... but the juniors were really good...! they totally desrve it... and i am so happy for them... haha...

then after lunched i made tambay for a while in the canteen then we had this softball/baseball clinic.... no one listened actually... what a waste of time...
anyway....
after our "discussion..." we had a practice game... it was really hot in the field i completely burned my skin out... i got out! i hate that umpire/pitcher guy.... he really sucks at pitching though he is good... maybe i just really am dumb... anyway i dont care all i know is that im so stupid... thats all!... haha...

after that mrs. peña told us an important reminder about these things that got lost... not my fault... if i was the theif i would have been so guilty that i must've fainted already... but i personally think that whoever person owned the lost thing was dumb and forgot where she placed her things... its her fault!!!

then the first volleyball game!!! it was so fun... as usual i was screaming my lungs out... it was a really close game especially in the second set... but unanimously the sophomores emerged victorious!!! hahaha.... amazing...

i have to rest tonight because first thing tomorrow morning is my softball game... we're playing against the freshmen and i am so nervous already... haha...!

good luck for the sophomores and everybody tomorrow!

cuidate...

the bridge on river kwai...

2005-10-23T13:23:00.000-07:00

hahaha... i am currently watching this old movie about that bridge on river kwai in thailand... im watching it because my dad wants me to... but its fine... to prep me and my sisters up before we go to thailand... im so excited...! hehe... anyway... about yesterday... i had a practice... AGAIN... and i was so tired after i wanted to die... really... and i went to spanish class after... it was fun we have an assignment... to draw our house... how unlikely for a spanish class.... then we went to mass after in festival mall... then we ate in outback... the popular band sideA had a performance there and they were eating in outback so the whole time i was eating i could see them... he's really old already! i didnt realize that coz it wasnt obvious in the t.v... and honestly he doesnt know how to smile... how disgusting... hehe.. i took this picture of me because i had nothing to do there...

omigosh... our cheerings tomorrow already and im about to die of nervous-ness... i SWEAR... i am SO nervous... i bought new shoes for it! keds... it looks good... for me... haha... then my first game of softball is going o happen on tuesday so no worries yet for softball.. im going to practice tomorrow anyway just to be sure...

im still watching and my dad wants me to...

so ill just continue this next time....

i just died

2005-10-21T22:37:00.000-07:00

omigosh... i officially died from tired-ness... imagine practicing the whole day... who wouldnt die?!? i did... but never mind anyway... i used to have a xanga but something is wrong with it so i did one here instead... haha...

i am really so tired mainly because of cheering practice... our dry run really sucked... super... like the worst ... i promise... then we had a practice from morning til' evening... omigosh! at least we already finished our routine after so long... finally... i could say that "we rock" without being guilty... thank God..!

we also had a fire drill at exactly 12 pm... it was really stupid and mrs dizon was practically panicking... as if...! so not real... fire gives out black smoke not white... how crazy...! hehe... i guess if there really was fire i wouldnt burn from the fire BUT i would burn from the heat of the sun in the field... how crazy really...

so anyway...we practiced in the field from maybe 4:30 til' 6 pm... how tiring...! but i am STILL happy we finished it already... nothing could beat that feeling... and lying down in the field is really such a great feeling especially without worries because our test just finished..! how fun...

after when i went home i went online *of course* haha... than so little people were online so i just had to deal with those that were there... like rachel, paolo and the like... haha... omigosh i really had a very *bangag* conversation with paolo... all his fault anyway... haha... then i got LSS with wouldnt it be nice by beach boys... his fault too... then i went offline to watch a movie which i am still doing until now... hahaha... mean girls...! hehe...

i am sooo happy because i got to see him like every hour of the whole day today... but i sort of felt sad... no idea why anyway... hehehe... but i still felt sad... okey... im so tired already....

so anyway til tomorrow...

*i aM nOt aLiVe...*